Everyone has had an out of experience at least once their life. An out of body experience is where a sensation out of one’s body. You are floating, or looking at you body from a distance.
There are different types of them. Near death, is the most common one.
I have had a lot of these, but the one i’m going to take about, is the one i took to heart. My papa’s death was the one. He was a great husband, father, and grandfather. I loved him dearly. Every chance i had to go see him I would take it in a heartbeat. This past time i went to New York was little different.
My face didn’t light up like it would. I wasn’t hardly talking like i normally do. I wasn’t myself for 3 weeks. I would stay at home instead of going out with friends. I wouldn’t go to work. I didn’t even get out of bed, until my mom said “Get dressed, we are going to the zoo.” I didn’t want to do that. I was forced, I cried the whole time.
The next day i was told my grandma was going with or without me. I got in that van faster than the anything that day. Worst of all, I couldn’t see my papa pull into my Aunt Tammy’s driveway, park, and yell “Sas.” I couldn’t see his face light up as mine did the same. I didn’t see him sitting outside eating a fireball candy, or smoking a cigarette. I couldn’t see any of the things he would.
I was very torn, heartbroken, lost. I will forever be lost without him. He was and still is my everything. My world. He will remain my world until the day i die. I still cry. When i’m alone is the worst. I feel like i have nobody. When i’m sitting in my room, sitting on my bed, holding his jacket close to me, I’m crying. Every time I talk about him to someone is crying.
People have gotten to the point where they are with me every second of the day. He was the reason why i’m in college. He’s the one that told to go no matter what. I went because of this great man. I will do what he tells me and stay and graduate. It hurts me knowing he won’t be able to see it in person but i know he will see it flying above me.